Nine-Teen

Hi.
It's 2.12 AM, July 4th 2013. Past midnight. So, I guess I'm legally 19 now. Nineteeeen.

"Nineteen physically but not mentally"

What friends said.

I know. I will forever be weird, young and dangerous even in 30 years after today. Why be boring and the same with others when you can be the odd one, right? 

So. Nineteen. 19. Nineteen. 

What have I done in my 19 years of living?

Hm. Couldn't recall most of the things happened to me but I do remember some of the historical one. The good and the bad. But, let them stay in my memories. I don't really want to share everything here even though it's my blog but privacy stays as privacy. And everybody knows that the only private place you get near to is something we human called as brain. It depends on you to spill what's inside of your brain to the world but I've learned my lesson man. Don't trust human so easily. I repeat. Don't. No matter how innocent they look, don't. Especially the internet. Memang minah kepochi lah internet ni. 

Unless you're that kind of person who likes to be in the middle of the spotlight.

Well. Please pretend you didn't read my previous paragraph.

I considered myself as the lucky one because I have a complete big happy family and the best bunch of friends I could ever asked for. We may have our up and down but hey, life's a roller coaster. Just lean back, be grateful and be happy for everything. 

NINETEEN. I'm freaking 19 already.

Birthday wishes :) Aaaaaaah. I couldn't asked for more. My families and friends gave me their greatest, sweetest birthday wishes ever and I couldn't stop smiling reading/watching/listening to them. They sent me videos, pictures, wishes, called and screamed in my ears just to wish me 'Happy birthday'. Even if not all of my 781 friends on facebook, 217 followers on twitter and 215 followers on instagram wished me, but still. The one who gave me their sincere wishes were enough for me. More than enough. I mean, who cares if you have 14562 followers on any social networks but 8/10 who wished you are strangers? You're happy in the internet. Real life? Are you really that happy? If you're happy, that's great. What matters is what you feel in the inside. Who made you laughed/smiled this entire life? 

Maybe 19 years of living changed me a little. Or maybe a lot.

Ok. Frankly speaking, I admit that I wouldn't be saying (or even thinking!) the same thing I write in this post one year ago. Nope. I wouldn't. I didn't even wear hijab last year. I was so "18, young, free and wild" lah konon. Wicked. But, in one year I tried to change myself. Fixed myself towards being a better me. Still trying though. Ain't that easy but InsyaAllah. I'll reach my goals. Anyway, it's already 3.24AM. I need to sleep. Thanks for the wishes. Thanks for everything. 

Alhamdullilah. 

19 years old Farah. Goodnight.